I am glad and horrified that it has finally hit me. I know who i am now. A few days ago i said i didn't know who i am at all. (No self image) now i know. I know i know i am ugly the very very existence of ugly.

Unpleasant or repulsive, esp. in appearance: "she thought she was ugly and fat". (of a situation or mood) Involving or likely to involve violence or other unpleasantness: "the mood in the room turned ugly".

Synonyms nasty - unsightly - hideous - ill-favoured - ill-favored Thats exactlyit! Nasty,hideous unsightly a disgrace a stain!!!