It has suddenly hit me like a frying pan. How ugly i am. This time i mean on the outside my brain is okay but everything else is not, the way i look and act. I hate myself so much. 'What is the point of doing this i'm too fucking ugly to function' i think nowadays. I hate myself for this so much and i have never ever wanted more to be anyone, anyone but myself because everyone else is human but i am disgusting and a disgrace to the race i am a stain i do not cry at sad things usually i get tears of frustration this time i didn't even get any tears because i just felt empty and something as ugly as i am doesnot feel. It is cruel but i should be put down. I am so angry right now that god would let me be born. I want to live, but as someone else i cannot stand being Megan right now everything about myself makes me flinch and want to leave this skin and body behind i hate me i hate i am infinitely ugly oh my god why????????