I think I could be a stronger person now. I can say no. I do not have to say 'it's okay' when I do not think it is okay. I can make my own decisions and put my happiness before others it sounds very very selfish to me but I can, I am living my own life no wonder I cannot like myself as I am not even myself I am a shapeless mixture that moulds into any shape depending on what makes someone be kind to me I keep manipulating people they do not notice as I talk to 1 person at a time. I can say no if I don't want to. I do not have to be selfless.