I don't like anyone in my family really but everyone has a family right? So you just feel close to them. I am close to the concept of 'family' (as a word) i want to bave some cushion i can fall back into at the end of a day but i don't have one i feel two types of empty during a day. At school i feel different and i can't connect to other people in a lightning way and so i am alone because i feel different and so i am empty. At home i want to avoid people and i want to be alone so i can feel empty. 

What is the point? Of writing about the person i think i am? Honest: i don't know anything about myself. I do things and cannot stitch them together to create a portrait of myself. Who the fuk am i?